I've always wanted to eat glass with you

Come along with me now

Wed, 08 Feb 2006 08:51:56 GMT

I'm tired of the damn games that i have to play along with.. give me something.. JESUS FUCKING CHRIST! I dont suck, I'm not an asshol, I am core. you could be if you werent so god damn stupid about things.

FUCK IT! SHANE AND I RULE OVER ALL! FUCK

<3

A Line Allows Progress, A Circle Does Not

Mon, 07 Nov 2005 18:24:03 GMT

sitting around, no work today
try pacing to keep awake
laying around, no school today
just drink until the clock has circled all the way
it is late afternoon
as you walk through the rooms
of a house that is quiet
except for unanswered telephones
you stand near the sink
while you're mixing a drink
you think you don't want to pass out
where your roommates will find you again
stumble around the neighborhood with nothing to do
you're always looking for something
to sniff, smoke, or swallow
calling over next door to see what they got
but you would settle for anything
that would make your brain slow down or stop
break this circle of thoughts you chase
before they catch back up with you
and your parents noticied your thinning face,
all the weight you lost
all the weight you are losing
you said, "i'm done feeling like a skeleton
no more sleep walking dead"
you're going to wake from this coma
you're going to crawl from this bed you have made
and stop counting on that camera
that hangs round your neck
because it won't ever remember
what you choose to forget
as you try to find some source of light
try to name one thing you like
you used to have such a longer list
and light you never had to look for it
but now it's so easy to second guess everything you do
until all you want is to finish this half empty glass
before the ice melts away
this feeling always used to pass
but seems like it's every day seems like its every night now

hackity hack hack hack

Thu, 03 Nov 2005 22:36:20 GMT

haw, i'm on steve's account! yay for hacking! nah, he just forgot to log out when he was over. this is fun. i should pretend to be him! the funny thing is...his internet is down, so he won't know i posted this for awhile! yesssss. shhhh, everyone. don't tell him. haw haw, rock.

your hacker friend,
erin.

One last rant

Mon, 24 Oct 2005 07:37:46 GMT

I swear that I wont delete this...

You cant promise me anything and thats fine, I dont want you to, atleast I got enough out of you to know that there could be a chance when you get your shit together(same here). This is going to be hard because one day at a time means I'm going to drive myself nuts for awhile but its worth it for you. Heres the thing, we end up spending all of this time together and I know its because you still love me but you just cant be with anybody at the moment, well honestly, neither can I. Day by day, one step at a time.... key word here is time.

Decided to write again, oh well, it helps

<3

Holy fucking shit

Sun, 23 Oct 2005 04:25:22 GMT

*TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey*
Name:	Steve
Birthday:	10-08-80
Birthplace:	South Bend, IN
Current Location:	South Bend, IN
Eye Color:	Hazel
Hair Color:	Black
Height:	5'5
Right Handed or Left Handed:	Right
Your Heritage:	Native American and Jew
The Shoes You Wore Today:	Chucks(always)
Your Weakness:	Beer and ummm yeah you know
Your Fears:	Death and Taxes
Your Perfect Pizza:	The Works
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	Go to school
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	Hahahahahaha or XOXO
Thoughts First Waking Up:	Today? Why did I sleep til 5? Normaly, "I'm never drinking again
Your Best Physical Feature:	My eyes
Your Bedtime:	between 3 and 6am
Your Most Missed Memory:	........
Pepsi or Coke:	Pepsi but I would kill for a Diet Coke with Splenda
MacDonalds or Burger King:	Burger King
Single or Group Dates:	Depends
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	Lipton
Chocolate or Vanilla:	Vanilla
Cappuccino or Coffee:	Neither
Do you Smoke:	Fuck yeah I do
Do you Swear:	Every fucking day bitches
Do you Sing:	Hahahahaha I try to
Do you Shower Daily:	Nope
Have you Been in Love:	Yes sir
Do you want to go to College:	SOOOOOOOOO bad
Do you want to get Married:	when I'm 30
Do you belive in yourself:	Sometimes
Do you get Motion Sickness:	Nope
Do you think you are Attractive:	Yeah
Are you a Health Freak:	Have you seen how much I smoke and drink?
Do you get along with your Parents:	My father
Do you like Thunderstorms:	Yep
Do you play an Instrument:	Guitar
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	Thats what I'm doing right now
In the past month have you Smoked:	I'm getting ready to light up now
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	Nope
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	Nope
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	Just to give Lisa chicken soup
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	Nope
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	Yes sir
In the past month have you been on Stage:	No but I wish
In the past month have you been Dumped:	Yep
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	Nope
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	I dont consider taking something from work stealing
Ever been Drunk:	I'm getting there right now
Ever been called a Tease:	Nope
Ever been Beaten up:	Yes sir and it was awesome
Ever Shoplifted:	Yep
How do you want to Die:	Peacefully with all my death bed friends by my side
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	Vince Vaughn
What country would you most like to Visit:	Europe
*In a Boy/Girl..*
Favourite Eye Color:	Brown
Favourite Hair Color:	Burnette
Short or Long Hair:	Long and mid
Height:	shorter then me or just a bit taller
Weight:	It depends
Best Clothing Style:	I love black on girls but it doesnt really matter as long as its not ghetto white trash
Number of Drugs I have taken:	None
Number of CDs I own:	Over 300 but I have over 1,000 on my computer
Number of Piercings:	6 but I took them all out
Number of Tattoos:	5
Number of things in my Past I Regret:	A whole shit ton
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

Monday Boredom

Tue, 18 Oct 2005 05:15:57 GMT

10 YEARS AGO I...
1. was 15
2. started smoking
3. played in a misfits rip off band with Erich
4. smoked pot for the first time

FIVE YEARS AGO I...
1. played in Kabuki
2. lived with Erich and Phil
3. worked at Macris
4. drank alot

TWO YEARS AGO I...
1. lived at the Birdsill house with Erich and Phil
2. was unemployed
3. was totally obsessed with Thursday and Coldplay
4. had a shaved head

ONE YEAR AGO I...
1. lived in Chicago
2. quit the Dead Popes
3. unemployed again
4. hoping we wouldn't have Bush for a 2nd term

LAST WEEKEND I...
1. went to Franks with the fam(roommates)
2. worked the ND game
3. got into an arguement
4. got very little sleep

YESTERDAY I
1. worked
2. had a weird conversation with my brother
3. found out some really bad news
4. drank beer and ate Taco Bell with Jessica

TODAY I
1. had my first adult conversation with my sister
2. worked
3. bitched my brother out about being a stupid teenager
4. listened to alot of butt rock and cheesy 80's love songs

TOMORROW I WILL
1. force my porbation officer to talk to me
2. ride a bike to the south side so I can check my dads mail and eat his food since he out of town
3. maybe talk to my mother
4. hopefully hang out with Liz like planned(you better remember hooker)

this isnt a fucking pity call

Fri, 14 Oct 2005 18:28:45 GMT

I just dont think I will ever get it right.... EVER! Do I have to stop being the nice guy? Do I have to start being a jerk? Really? Am I that awful to be with? Sorry, I'm being emo at the moment but I've been wearing my heart on my sleeve for sooooo long and I'm getting sick of it. When is enough enough? Everyone else can have happy long term relationships but I cant seem to keep someone that I really care about for longer then a second... I just need to get the fuck out of this house but I seemed boxed in wherever I go. GRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!

I wish I had a God

Wow

Tue, 27 Sep 2005 20:43:07 GMT

I feel way better then I thought I would.... that doesnt mean I dont want to hang out, I just realize that I did NOTHING wrong and this just makes me a better person. Maybe now I can hang out with my friends and not feel guilty about it. Fuck some bitches

Tue, 27 Sep 2005 08:34:04 GMT

FUCK ALL

I GOT DUMPED

ITS ALL BULLSHIT

I'M GOING TO GET FUCKED UP

HATE MY LIFE FOR A FEW WEEKS

FUCK ALL AGAIN

EXCEPT FOR THE FEW THAT I LOVE, ALL FUCKING LADIES NEED TO FUCKING DIE IN A CAR CRASH WHERE THE LIMBS EXPLODE AND THERE IS NOTHING LEFT BUT THEIR BLACK HEARTS OF INFANITE DEATH.. SOULLESS BITCHES

I'LL GET OVER IT AND FIND SOMEBODY BETTER BUT GODDAMN.... HONESTLY I'VE HELD BACK ON THE GODDAMN FOR FAR TO LONG SO... GOD-FUCKING-DAMN, NEVER DATE A MONEY HUNGREY CHRISTIAN... E'NOUGH SAID

Woot Woot

Mon, 26 Sep 2005 18:13:04 GMT

Well I guess either tonight or tomorrow will be the deciding factor in my relationship. She's pissed, I'm not, things can be worked out but nothing has changed since Saturday and I'm freaking out. I guess all I can do is wait it out because either we're finished or we're not. Happy early birthday to me

Mon, 26 Sep 2005 03:36:32 GMT

I just dont get it..

Sun, 25 Sep 2005 18:03:47 GMT

I could fucking kill somebody right now! Yeah, you heard me, KILL!

Sun, 25 Sep 2005 14:11:55 GMT

Who do you trust?

4 to 5 months yay

Mon, 12 Sep 2005 04:00:20 GMT

Blah fucking blah

And so it comes to this...

Wed, 20 Jul 2005 17:24:34 GMT

You cant change people, you can try so hard but you cant change a fucking thing. I'm guilty of alot of things, I have major faults, as do each and everyone of you and one of mine is that I put to much faith in people, way to much infact. I've set myself up for fall after fall and you would think that I would learn but I always start over where I left off... blind faith in people and the thought that they are genuine in there emotions. I guess the key word in this whole thing is faith, well you can claim faith all you want but do you truly have it? Why would you? I just lost my faith in people....

Good day

Well,,,,,

Wed, 20 Jul 2005 09:18:30 GMT

...I just cant win and i give up. I hate to be emo but I'm starting to think that I'm never going to be with anyone long term. Fuck it, I have bitterness to keep me company, YAY FOR THAT! HOLLA

Just in case

Tue, 28 Jun 2005 09:58:46 GMT

Take my Quiz on QuizYourFriends.com!

ummm yeah, i'm happy so fuck off(not directed to anyone at all, just being my dickhead self at 5am)

<3 to all

FUCK YEAH

Mon, 06 Jun 2005 07:26:45 GMT

Motley Crue is life!

Oh yeah, I have developed a sorta man crush(as Lisa puts it)on someone.... shhhhh

Thu, 26 May 2005 03:37:49 GMT

You scored as Anakin Skywalker.

</td>

Anakin Skywalker

89%

Darth Vader

86%

C-3PO

69%

General Grievous

67%

Yoda

61%

Mace Windu

50%

Obi Wan Kenobi

50%

Clone Trooper

47%

Chewbacca

44%

Emperor Palpatine

44%

Padme Amidala

42%

R2-D2

28%

Which Revenge of the Sith Character are you?
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OH MY FUCKING GOD

Fri, 20 May 2005 03:22:59 GMT

Star Wars Episode 3, what can I say? Well for starters it was the best fukcing movie I have ever seen... oh fuck I cant talk about it anymore because I'm going tear up.... <3

every one knows the last toe is the always the coldest to go

Thu, 19 May 2005 06:14:56 GMT

sweetcheaks80: i'm like a fungus
liesa_lady: or a parasite!
sweetcheaks80: if that turns you on hehe
liesa_lady: hell yeah

BURN PART 2

Tue, 17 May 2005 14:58:45 GMT

soooooooo ignore everything about my last post except for the part about philip james sorberg being a stupid little bitch because philip james sorberg is in fact a stupid little bitch

<3

BURN!!!!!

Tue, 17 May 2005 05:47:46 GMT

i'm sure its nothing but why would someone want to hangout with their EX and his brother instead of a stud like myself? FUCKING LAME!!!!! laporte jerkoffs need to die...

oh! FUCK PHIL SORBERG!!!!!! this should be a fun ride to chicago tomorrow. little fucking bitch.

Sun, 15 May 2005 16:03:40 GMT

i hate myself right now

You can follow logic or contest it all

Sun, 15 May 2005 03:56:15 GMT

so i now know that i am a music snob and i dont care... FUCK YOUR TASTE IN MUSIC BECAUSE MINE RULE AND YOU JUST FUCKING SUCK(this is not pointed at the 5 people that read this)

so do i like this person? yes! does said person like me? yes! so what the fuck is the problem?? grrrrr....

i really really really want to call off work tomorrow so i can see the faint and bright eyes but i know thats not going to happen...

ohhhhhhhh, mars volta on tuesday and then star wars on thursday!!!! fuck you because i rule and you are a fag... good day(again, this is not pointed at my 5 friends that read this)